Caitlin's Journal

caecae @ 2005-12-13T15:15:00

2005-12-13T20:32:19Z

woah....so it's almost been 5 months since I've updated, thats too crazy. lol so anyways...I'm at Mohawk now, have been since September, and today was actually my last day for this semester. I'm all done exams WOOT! too bad for those still in high school that aren't offically done until the 23rd. I'm really hapy to have some time off because lately I feel like I haven't seen my friends in awhile, well thats actually true. Like Gianna, Angela, Kaylee, Evan, Kyle, Josh, etc. but the weird thing is...christmas is such a busy time, so I probably won't see them as much as I'd like to. lol...well, what can ya do? as we get older, we have less time to just hang out and relax. there's a bunch of things that I'll be busy with during my time off...but it'll be nice not to have to worry about school and such. I will certainly enjoy it! However, next semester will be different because pretty much most of my class has a different schedule
than kristina, amelia and me, so it kind of sucks not to be able to see them as often as I'd like...theres quite a few people that I like to talk to and see, but I will see them again! ;) lol. until then, I'll just miss them! lol

Caitlin

Prom!!!

2005-07-11T15:45:49Z

woah..its sooo been awhile since I've updated..and I was told by a certain person to update it asap...that and the fact that I should anyways...so..school's done! YAY I'm done High school! the last day was kind of the best lol..not really, it didn't feel any different from any other day. anyways..the best part of it was PROM! oh man, what a great night! so I woke up really early..so I had some breakfast..my mom said she was going to make me french toast, but forgot the morning of...so then my sister came up and we went to the hairdressers for 12..she did like all 3 of us at the same time sort of...lol it was funny. So then we went to the Farmers market to pick something up and then I went home. so as I was running a little late, I still had to do the makeup, put the dress and shoes on, get my purse ready and head out to the mountain brow. that's where kaylee, gianna, angela, steve and I all met up for pictures. It was fun. We all stood near a tree for some, and then we thought we'd be adventurous and climb on some rocks to get a different kind of picture. so that was quite some fun. Then we had to pick up Kim and head off to prom..so we got there and took many more pictures. then the dinner came and we had a nice waiter named Steve. I think he thought I was crazy because I had introduced myself and actually talked to him. lol...I don't think he was expecting it. anyways, so the dinner was done and the dance started and it was just the most amazing part. They played some really good songs, and it was awesome..so by about 10 my date showed up....yay for Evan! lol oh my..this one song came on "you and me" by Lifehouse, and of course it's gianna and my song pretty much we always sing it and stuff, so we started dancing lol, but evan comes up to see if I would dance with him..and both gianna and I are like "NO! We're dancing together" lol...it was funny..so at about 11:30 gianna's mom kindly picked us up and brought us to Dan's house in brantford. That was so much fun too...people were swimming and we were so jealous that we just wanted to jump in with our dresses on...so then we went inside and wacthed "Gone in 60 seconds" at like 1:30am...and then it didn't finish until like 3:45..so Kyle drove us home and by the time I got home and in bed was about 4:30am lol...it was crazy! but the most amazing night ever! I have pictures if you want to see! I'll update about our camping trip later!

officially 2 days left of school...technically 3

2005-06-15T14:53:59Z

hey everyone...wow..only 2 days left of school..well, technically 3 for me because monday we have classes in the morning, and then I have my one guitar exam in the afternoon..I love that, it's on the first day of exams, and I only have one, so then I'm done. wow...my high school experience will be done. Although I can't say I'll miss it. I've spent some time away from school for
co-op and stuff twice, so it's not like a big change. Anyways..I'm not going to miss the school aspect of it..but definetly the people that made it a good experience instead of a bad one! And not just the people that I went to school with, but friends that were just there. You're all great! lol I wanted to make sure I thank everyone for making these past four years (wow, 4 years) go the way it did. Every one of you helped me get through these years and made it fun! I'm glad I didn't have to go through Biology class alone...thanks Tristan! Nicole you're an awesome listener! Raychelle...lol..you made the classes awesome. whenever stress hits..there you are making me laugh..lol..thanks Angela for jamming with me in guitar! Kaylee I don't know if I've actually had a class with you...maybe, but thanks for just being the awesome person you are. Spares with you, Gianna were not boring at all...those days of watching movies, going to the mall, tanning, dancing! lol it was awesome! those of you outside of school...you guys are all amazing people..thanks to :Bethany, Evan, Jolene, Kyle, Ryan, Kim, Jen, Steve H, Steve B, Alanna, Rob, Scotty, Alyssa, Brielle. ALso to those who I've just recently met....I'm sorry if i've missed anyone, but I don't think I did...again..thanks to all who have taught me so much and helped me through things. Remember to bring everything to God and trust in him always....hope to keep in touch with everyone...Good luck in the years to come!

Caitlin

I hate these times

2005-06-14T15:06:57Z

Don't you just hate it when you love one part of your life, but hate the other? well..I shouldn't say hate...maybe strongly dislike..but doesn't it just bother you when that happens? I do..I'm at that point right how. Of course I love all my friends and family, and obviously God, but some things I just don't agree with at the moment. it's hard to explain, but I'll try. I love my friends and I love the hangouts we have, and we have such good times...the friends part isn't bothering me..it's sort of everything else. I'm getting really annoyed with my family...and I try my hardest not to be home as much on those days, and it really sucks. and then theres the school part..people are probably wondering "what does she have to worry about, she's only got a guitar exam..how hard is that?" but its stressful because I have to learn 3 songs by monday and play them like I've been playing guitar for my whole life...but I have no idea! lol...and then there's prom...oh my! we STILL haven't decided what we're doing after...we all want to do different things...or we'll have an awesome idea, but theres ONE person who doesn't want to do that. Including me! I think for one suggestion, I'm the only one that doens't want to do it. there's also the "date" thing..before I was just like "I'm going Bachelorette..yay" but now people just keep asking me, and asking me if I have a date, and then they brag about theirs, and now I'm just getting annoyed and now its getting to me..like, I won't let it bother me too much while I'm there...but I would much perfer to have a date. lol..maybe that sounds bad..but I just want one...but I wont just go with anyone...nope...then I'll deal with being dateless...lol anyways...the other and last thing thats bothering me lately is the whole camping thing...I'm soo stressed with the planning and getting everything organized and we have like 2 weeks left. oh man...anyways...I'm going to stop being annoying..because I'm sure I'm bothering people with my complaining...see ya!

prom is in 2 weeks!

2005-06-07T14:37:20Z

Hey everyone...although nothing really exciting has happened lately, I'm still going to update you on my boring life....last week we had a carnival at the school and I was out in the sun all day, so I got a sunburn. which hurt, but it eventually turned into a nice tan. So friday comes around and I missed it because I was way too tired...and I thought I needed some sleep because of my 14 hours of work on Saturday...and it wasnt straight which was good, but bad because I had to change from one job to another. ugh! it was gross...so anyways, I missed out on the saturday night get together, which sucked. so sunday came slong and I was soo excited because Kaylee and Gianna were going to sing at the evening service, so I went to that and it was really good....they both are musically talented..they were awesome....incredible..lol. so yeah then we went to wendy's for some social time. lol...and then came the big monday! we (Kaylee, Angela, Gianna, and I) went to Canada's Wonderland... It was sooo much fun. We got to go on the new Italian Job ride...and it was only a 30 minute wait because we went right at 11, when we got there, and it was sooo awesome...the best ride ever! Im not a huge rollercoaster person, but I'll go on that one, and Vortex (no upside down ones though)and next time I'll go on the Fly...I wont tell you the story of that one...lol so YAY Prom is in 2 weeks! its going to be awesome...although none of us have dates, (I have no choice lol) and we haven't figured out how we're getting there, it will all work out..so if anyone has any suggestions on how we could get there? or what we should do afterward? (we have on suggestion, but its always good to have more) let me know! thanks...anyways, that was my weekend..it was pretty sweet! again, I wont be at youth this friday, but I'll definetly be there on Saturday! I hope no one misses me too much!

caecae @ 2005-05-31T22:32:00

2005-06-01T02:35:38Z

ok...so I was told just recently (like 5 minutes ago) that I should update my livejournal..apparently I am a slacker...lol (ahem evan ahem!) lol...so here it is...my update of my livejournal....nothing really new to report...this weekend was pretty good..friday youth, saturday, friends over and we played tennis...sunday nothing...lol..I had no life on sunday! lol...so there it is...hope you're happy!

Caitlin

Convention

2005-05-15T23:59:12Z

Hey everyone! This past weekend I went to the Overflow convention at Waterloo Recreation center and it was awesome. totally amazing! ok, so you know how people go to these conventions and retreats and stuff and come back saying "oh, we stayed in a hotel, stayed up late, etc" but they don't actually say how the spritual part of it was? because everyone's bound to have one. well, I'll tell you about the weekend, but not about the emotional time I had because it's so impersonal to tell people that on a livejournal, so, instead, I'll give you a recap of my weekend and I will leave the "spiritual speech" for later...in person...lol I'd be more than welcome to talk to you guys about it because I'm sooo excited and Happy because I AM A FRIEND OF GOD!!!...ok so Here it is...enjoy!

FRIDAY
Ok, so we loaded up the buses and headed for Braeside (an hour away from the convention center)so yeah I sat with Gianna and we had a good talk. I also started throwing skittles in her mouth(we did it on the way to retreat) but this time, it went all the way down her throat, so she kind of choaked, and that finished it, but she was laughing so it was funny! lol..anyways, friday night was just a concert evening...we arrived and Grits was onstage so we started dancing and having a blast..then we went to the front and jumped...it was awesome..there was a little bit of a sermon type thing ld by David Nasser...REALLY funny guy! trust me...so Tree63 also performed and they're cool! the concert ended at about 12:30 and we got to the cabins around 1:30ish and we slept..lol

SATURDAY
Breakfast was good...some sort of egg english muffin thing and hashbrowns.but thats not really important..anyways, sunday morning worship was awesome...I pretty much fell in love with michael gungor..well, his music anyway..hes just an amazingly talented musician..oh man..so yeah that was just whoah! lol..then after lunch they had activities going on including a showing of Napoleon Dynamite, which we obviously saw! lol..then we all went out to dinner at Swiss Chalet..and our waiters name was "Miro" and man did we have fun saying that! lol so afterwards, was the eveing service..thats when it gets really personal....Michael obviously led worship and thats when it happened..lol so immediately after I went up to buy his cd..and what a great time I went because thats when he was there...so I got to talk to him and stuff,...sooo awesome and then came the Starfield concert..lol..I've never heard or seen them before but man are they just great! great songs and definetly got the crowd going..we also got to meet them , get autographs and pictures..lol..anyways...we didnt get back until 2am..people did NOT want to go to sleep..but it was all good....

SUNDAY
we got to the arena at 10:15...saved seats and immediately went down to the front to worship(led by Michael obviously) se we could get front and center..which we did! YAY! that was the happy time for me! got a shirt! lol and yeah....I will leave the rest of sunday for suspense...you'll have to contact me somehow or another to find out! haha..but heres a quick look at the lyrics to the most awesomest song ever...by Michael Gungor! Enjoy!

FRIEND OF GOD!
Verse 1
Who am I that you are mindful of me
That you hear me
When I call
Is it true that you are thinking of me
That you love me
It's amazing

I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend

God almighty
Lord of Glory
You have called me friend x4

chorus

caecae @ 2005-05-12T09:21:00

2005-05-12T13:45:47Z

Hey everyone! it's been awhile since I have updated you on my life...because really, thats what a journal is for...telling people about whats happening and saying whats on your mind. Well...Im off to the University of Waterloo..I have decided to go...amazing huh? lol...j/k..Im only going for a convention..DOn't you worry, I will be back. Before convention though..I plan on going to see "Les Miserables" at HDCH tonight with Gianna, James, and Angela...I'm very excited. Tomorrow is when I submit half of my only culminating task... and hopefully I can come home tomorrow with very exciting news (I'll tell ya later)
PLUS..my family decided we're all going to Holland in 2 years YAY! Hopefully I can save up enough for it...lol..anyways...I had recently read an entry from a friend and they had mentioned something about msn being horrible for conversations...this is totally true with the exception when you either don't call them very often, or they live too far away to call them everyday. Msn is great for making plans with people...im telling you it works (speaking of...weekly gathering on saturdays..we usually go rollerblading...minus this saturday...contact me for details) anyways...I won't be deleting msn for the purpose of making plans with those people whom I dont have their phone numbers. and talking to the family in Holland...lol..So this person has a very good point...I guess THAT'S why I haven't seen them on msn..lol...but that doesn't explain all the phone calls I've been getting from them?? lol

Caitlin

Friday.....

2005-04-22T22:36:08Z

For those who haven't read my previous journal...READ NOW...it's soo good! Gianna banana and I came up with it...so anyways...its April 22 and nothing new has really happened...it was my friend, Raychelle's birthday last week saturday! woot to being 18! lol so yeah...school is pretty cool...I don't dread going to co-op which I always used to do last year! this time it's more fun...these people are more laid back and I enjoy talking and working with them..lol..I am loving spare these days...mostly because gorgeous Gianna and I get to hang out a lot..I think we might be hanging out too much......nope not at all! lol...We get to talk A LOT...I really feel a lot closer to her now..it's awesome because I think (especially last time I had co-op)that we didn't really get a lot of time to hang out..that goes for Kaylee and Angela too...but now Gianna and I have soo much fun...on the other hand..I don't get a lot of time to hang out with Kaylee especially. lol. Angela and I have guitar class together and we sometimes hang out afterwards...but Kaylee and I don't have any classes and we don't hang out...just the two of us..so I definetly want to improve that...there are other people I don't get together with as often as I should, and I want to try to improve that as well. I just think I would perfer the same response...that they want to as well..lol..so yeah...anyways. Great news! I got accepted to Mohawk , Fanshawe, and Sheridan colleges! now I have choices! YAY FOR COLLEGE! lol God is so good to me! so I'm pretty much going to go to Mohawk because it just outweighs the others. It's closer, which means no residence fees, cheaper because it's only a two-year progam and because of the whole residence thing, and it's apparently the best one out of all three for the program i'm taking. So my plan is...go to college for 2 years, get a full-time job, buy a car (so I can visit all my friends who will be at colleges that are far away) and obviously the long-term goals are of course get married, etc, but thats too far ahead..lol..I'm not exactly ready for that...lol so yeah...life is pretty good on that end..on the other end..my family isn't exaclty how I would perfer it to be..two of my sisters have already moved out..one is married now, and thats awesome, but they all don't experience what I do when it comes to my spiritual life. I want them so much to come to church and accept Christ, the way my parents have brought us up...but all I can do now is pray and hope that it will all turn out..some days I just want to vent and cry and let it all out, and I am so thankful for my friends who are there for me, but I still feel like I need someone else there. ok, so you know how everyone gives different hugs? everyone has their own touch, and feel when they hug you...so it's kind of like that, where I need that certain hug. My mom gives me good hugs every day...Gianna gives me good hugs just when I need them the most...and then there are certain other people that give off that certain touch and feel at different times..and I guess that's kind of what I need. For example...because I haven't seen Jolene in quite a long time, I need her hugs because I miss them. but anyways...the family situation is why I need those hugs...so for now..other than those great hugs...please pray for my sisters, that they too would know and love Christ...thanks a bunch guys! I'm off to youth and possibly HDCH! see ya!

Caitlin

to all who have the time to read....

2005-04-06T01:17:53Z

so we were playing this game one day, to figure out who we're all going to marry. (no...not fortune telling you crazyies! we're not into that..noooo way)
why we are writing this email you ask?! well i dont know...ask caitlin. she knows these things. yep, its all her! oh it sooo is. it soo is not! Gianna is a liar!
anyways, so we were playing that game and we were thinking about all the things that a guy could do to make a girl happy...the little things of course!
so here is the list that could possibly help all you desperate guys out there to "woo" all those desperate girls! *note we are not hinting, therefore this posting will remain annonymous* Enjoy!

1.Love God and always serve him
2.Jump in puddles
3.Send flowers to workplace
4.Walk on the beach..by yourself! lol..no really, walk at the smelly, fish filled pier!
5.Be a hearty guy...like Kyle!
6.Go to a Kelly Clarkson concert!
7. Befriend Hilary Duff
8.Write her a song
9. Sing her the song you wrote...even if you're not that good
10.Go skating every week ( we go on Saturdays from 9-11, except its closed now, so inquire within)
11.Play guitar
12.Show up at random days and times
13.Learn the "shark tale" dances
14.Build her a cake
15.Catch her a delicious bass
16.Send her a random e-mail
17.Run through sprinklers
18.Tell her she's beautiful...especially if she is
19.Play with a puppy
20.Play with her hair
21.Go to the park
22.Watch the sunset
23.Talk to her
24.Have a staring contest
25.Go bowling
26.Invite her over
27.Yell at her when she doesn't listen...lol..ha ha..Just testing to see if you actually read it! ha ha..we're so awesome! awesome we are!
28.Find out what she likes
29.Do something special for her birthday....*note..choose from list, but originality is awesomer*
30.Walking in the rain
31.Walking out of the rain
32.Send her letters in the mail...we love getting mail
33.Call HER and make plans
34.Take pictures with her
35.Ask her for pictures of her
36.Kiss her hand
37.Open the door for her...any door is fine really
38.Offer her your sweater when she's cold
39.Start a snowball fight
40.Teach her an instrument
41.Write her notes and leave them in random places
42.Give her many hugs especially if you haven't seen her in awhile
43.Offer to buy her lunch
44.Get excited with her over the littlest things
45.Tell her you missed her
46.Love her family
47.Tell her what you love about her
48.Invite her to hang out with your friends
49. Smile at her constantly
50. And finally....Love her for who she is

posted by: Caitlin Van Dyk and Gianna Hamstra

Great News!

2005-03-31T22:14:15Z

Hey everyone! I have great news! If anyone wants to know...just ask! lol

Caitlin

please read this before todays entry

2005-03-29T01:25:59Z

hey everyone..well, I got a few comments about my livejournal..and one thing I need to make clear! This guy is not a Jerk..or anything else. He is a great guy...This is the guy that I like and I do not think he is a jerk wahtsoever...do not think anything negative about him.

Caitlin

caecae @ 2005-03-28T16:59:00

2005-03-28T22:17:41Z

this song really describes what I feel..and I will explain after you read the lyrics..It's called Behind these Hazel eyes by Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
---------------------------------

so yeah...right now this is what im feeling. I honestly wish I could read minds...especially the one of the male specimen..lol..they are the most hardest to read..and even though guys may think that we are hard to read..its really just because we aren't guys, and they aren't girls..lol..but I'm really confused/agitated/anxious about the situation I am in right now...Some of you may not understand what I am talking about and that is just fine..I'm really actually hoping that this person would read my livejournal and understand what I am trying to say. I also hope that they don't mind i'm being so open about this to everyone. So here it goes...I really like this person for about 3 or 4 years(yes they know about it too) and I was pretty okay with the fact that nothing was going to happen..you know..I was just like "Hey, here's this awesome guy that I really, really like, and even though he doesn't feel the same about me, I'm okay with that!" I was just being me and taking life as it was and being so thankful to God for what I had. so in early January, I found out that he actually did like me, so we had started dating. Some people may say that I should have waited a little longer and really prayed about it so that I know for sure that this was what God had planned, but the thing is...I've already been praying for the past 2 to 3 years. So anyways, we had dated for about a month and a half before it suddenly ended. I was quite upset..not so much that it hadn't lasted very long...but because we were no longer together. I couldn't just get over it so fast and like...lose my feelings for him. It wasn't like that at all. So in the past month or so..we would talk or whatever and one day he would tell me what he felt and that he wanted to get back together or whatever..but then when he thought about it...he decided he needed more time, which is totally understandable..I had asked for more time in the beginning...but yeah I would just like it if he wouldn't tell me that he wanted to date again until he knew for sure, for sure..because I would get all happy..but then disappointed. So I'm really struggling with this, but I really like the guy and I just want him to be completely confident in this and want it as much as I do. Like, of course I don't want to get hurt and I know that he doesn't want to hurt me...but he needs to understand that I have I guess you could say that I "forgave" him for hurting me before, and I'm over that part. If I was holding a grudge towards him and hadn't gotten through it, then I wouldn't want to get back together. So I won't get over him and move on or be at peace with us quite yet. I'm still willing to give it a try, but I just...I don't know...I guess I just need to hear it from him that he is willing to as well. so if "he" is reading this then I have one last thing to say: I know you don't want to hurt me, and I know you need time to think about this because you aren't too sure, but know this, I still really really like you, and I am still praying about it. Once you know what you want...let me know.
So I think that's all I needed to get out, but if theres more...I'll add another livejournal to continue this long entry...lol I guess this was more of an e-mail towards the person..sorry guys! If you have any comments, please leave them..or e-mail me if you feel that it's better. my e-mail address is...well you should know it..lol

Caitlin

Easter weekend

2005-03-25T01:06:30Z

Well..I am quite excited about the fact the I get to have the day off tomorrow! Yay! This week has gone by quite slow...but last week was march break and it was pretty good. I got to hang out with Jen quite a lot and it was awesome because It drew us together as friends. Thanks for the awesome times we had Jen! but I also got to hang out with other people too..like having sort of like a 24 marathon with Kaylee! and skating with the group! it was a different march break..and going back to school was a little weird but fun! I missed guitar class! lol....but I hope that this weekend will be better and I hope to see some people that I haven't seen in awhile(not mentioning any names...you should know who you are lol)but until I have more exciting news about my life...this is it! see ya!

Caitlin

caecae @ 2005-03-01T15:18:00

2005-03-01T20:33:21Z

Wow! I certainly haven't updated in awhile I guess. A lot has happened in the past little while. umm...in the beginning of last week, my mom left for holland(monday) and a lot of pressure has been put on me...The final preperations for formal were needing to be finished so that was quite stressful, plus the fact that considering my mom was gone, I took on one of her clients, so I had that job to do. Also I had the laundry, and the cooking, and the taking care of the house to do as well and I couldnt handle it all. Lastly, the one person that I needed the most, decided to break up with me on the tuesday, and my mom wasnt even there and I really needed her. so my week was pretty stressful, disappointing, and it really was the worst week ever. So now, I don't know what to do about the situation. I don't know what I am going to say when we talk about it...but I will just have to pray about it and hopefully God will help me to get through this...aside from that, Formal was actually pretty good..with the exception that I had no date, but that's okay...and Saturday I got to hang out with Brielle which was also fun! And then Sunday was not a very eventful day...I was soo bored and It just made me think too much about my week...man I really need a hug!

this one's for Melodee

2005-02-18T20:07:33Z

Well, I was asked by 'someone" to post what I did, or at least what "mr.valentine" did..lol..so here it goes: I was told on the saturday before valentines day to "keep it open" ot knowing what we were going to do. I've never been too big on valentines day..Like I've never been a big fan of it. I'm not one of those people who either gets really upset because I didn't have anyone to spend it with, or get really excited because I actually did have someone oto spend it with. I've just been "normal" lol. anyways...so I was pretty muh waiting for a phone call so I knew what we were doing, but by 7, I thought "well, It doesn't look like I'm going out or doing anything, so I'll head over to the mall, and meet up with Angela obnce she's done work". Well, by 20 after 7, He shows up at my door with a whole other plan. lol, so what happened was we just hung out at my house and watched the Notebook. I got the traditional flowers and bear, but I also got a cake which I hope was homemade...lol..I loved my Valentines day! so there it is. That's how "Mr. Valentine" and I spent Valentines day! Hope everyone had a good one too!

Caitlin

1 month and counting....

2005-02-03T23:09:18Z

Well, today was quite festive. It was Evans and mine 1 monthaversary (gianna) and I went to HDCH to visit. I went along with Jolene and Angela and we had some good times. We arrived there at around 11:30 and talked a bit with Mr. VanKampen and then roamed the halls waiting for class to be done. At lunch I visited with lots of people....and then I hung out with Jen during third period and then Alyssa during fourth period. It was quite fun! I enjoyed today seeing all the people I especially haven't seen in awhile. Like Linette, Sydney, Ryan, etc. Anyways it was quite a good day! I'm thankful for many things..haha Evan ;) so yeah...I hope everyone enjoyed it as much as I did!

My weekend!

2005-01-31T14:35:11Z

Wow! What a weekend. Friday I got to hang out with Gianna. We haven't done that in awhile. We went to Shoppers, tested some perfume and Gianna smelled like a man! lol..(inside joke)..then we went back to Gianna's house and watched Top Gun...it was great. Then after youth, Bethany and I had a good talk (at least I thought it was good) I like having really good talks with people once in awhile. Then Saturday, a bunch of us went bowling...oh man let me tell ya it was awesome. The people that came were Jen, Kim, Kim Voortman, Ty, Alanna, Angela, Evan, Eric, Dave, Nicole, Dan, Ryan, Josh, Kyle, Jolene, Eugene, Amanda, Kaylee, Steve, and Gianna came with her family! it was quite the party. Half way through our first game the lights started to go off and they played music, so some of us were partying it up, dancing, and having good times. We definetly have to do it again sometime. Then there was Sunday, which was last night. Last night Evan and I went to Jen's and we literally talked for I think it was 3 hours. Then Kim showed up and we played some President. It was fun with the exception of Evan and Jen fighting all the time..lol not seriously, but they were having fun with it. Then we watched Kate and Leopold which is a great movie. Everyone should see it. And sadly I have to be home at 11, so the evening was done by then...I think...Kim, Evan and Jen migth have gone and done somethign, but who knows...lol well thats my weekend. If anyone who missed out on Saturday night bowling wants to do something like that again, I'm hoping for min-putting next time! lol..have a good one

Caitlin

Exam week!

2005-01-25T04:00:41Z

Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is studying hard for their exams, and is doing great on them as well. I had a good weekend, but a bad weekend. Friday was awesome. I went to youth, but I left after cells to go to a concert in Brantford. Well, we missed the actual bands, but I got to see Evan. That made me happy! and then Jolene, Eugene and I went to Joel's house which was fun...man are HD people funny! lol..and then it sucked, because the evening was over...I couldn't even sleep that night because I loved it so much! Then Saturday was fun..NOT..lol I got stranded at Joanna's house after work because of the snow storm. lol, but we came home eventually and I got to talk to some people....lol Sunday was LONG...all I did was watch movies which was relaxing, but boring at the same time. This week is going by sooo slow it's not even funny. I think it's because I had such an awesome time on Friday, that I'm excited about the weekend! Thanks Evan! I've already finished one exam, but I have a MAJOR one on Wednesday that I am studying for all day tomorrow(Tuesday) and then my Travel and Tourism exam is on Thursday, but that's going to be a breeze, I don't need to study for it. So yeah...time will go by slow until I'm with you! lol..so yeah....If anyone wants to give me a call tomorrow..I'll be needing the break..AND someone to talk to! Anyways, I must go sleep...It'll be a LONG day tomorrow! lol...have a good one!

2 weeks!

2005-01-19T00:11:08Z

Wow its been 2 weeks! YAY. I'm happy....anyways formal is going to be awesome! its on February 25th and our theme is "The Rammies" like the grammy's but for Hill Park because our mascot is a ram! yeah, so we're going to have awards and everything...and i'm the host! it's very exciting for me! I cannot wait..only 38 days left! lol..I better start saving. Anyways, its exam time and I am stressed about my culminating task. I have to plan a trip somewhere and I want it to be the best because it's what I want to do after college(Travel Agent). SO yeah, its frusterating, but hopefully I'll get a good mark. well, I must go, have to finish the project and start studying?..weird, I never study until like 2 days beforehand. Oh well, hope everyone has a good week! Good luck on your exams!

Caitlin

Happiest Girl

2005-01-04T03:06:42Z

Hey Everyone! well, my christmas was eventful...did quite a few things over my holidays which kept me happy. I went to the mall, tobogganing, and just hung out with friends. This weekend was not as eventful, but I dealt with it! I had nothing to do for New Years, however Jen, Kim and I went out for dinner...man Boston Pizza is the slowest place ever...and it wasn't even packed! Well, my previous journal stated what was going on, and now things have changed... and I'm really happy now....lol...That's all I'm going to say....have a good one!

For all who have the urge to read

2004-12-31T04:44:38Z

Hello fellow readers. I am writing this as a letter to a specific person if he ever decides or has time to read it. I just need to get it out in the open. It kind of already is, to many, but I haven't made it "public" I guess. This guy SHOULD know how I feel about it, but I guess it slipped his mind and now likes to play with my emotions, or just doesn't realize, but how many signals can a girl give? lol. I know that he thought nothing would happen between us, but I just don't understand. We started off as friends, but I felt more..and eventually you did too. but what made you stop all of a sudden? when did you stop? Why? Was it something I did or didn't do? You thought about what would happen if we started something but did you also think about what would happen if something didn't? You took the time to let me know that nothing will ever happen, but has that changed? I don't want to say I'm getting "signals" from you, but I'm definetly feeling that you might still feel the same as I do. I told you everything, and let you in. And here I am, broken up inside .I just thought you were the one, but you won't get to see the side of me that loves you. For all of you who don't know the story, this guy is the one that I thought would make me happy, and he has, with some exceptions of disappointment. Because of him, I have changed into someone I'm happy to be, instead of being someone that God wouldn't approve of. I've prayed, and prayed about it, but has God been giving different responses? It kills me that I never tried harder, but would that have helped? I don't think so. Some things I've said are from a song I heard, because it did say what I felt, as corny as that sounds...lol So anyways, this really sucks because I have no idea what he is feeling, and what will happen. I feel that it's in God's plan for us to pursue a relationship, because if not, God would have helped me stop liking him, and have made it easier for me to forget about it. I guess all I have to do is pray some more, and listen to my advice-filled friends. Anyways, thanks for reading, I'll keep it posted!

-Caitlin-

christmas!

2004-12-28T00:28:49Z

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope everyone's had an awesome holiday! I know everyone is extremely busy and probably won't read this but that's okay...i just need to type what's going on, and then I'll be good. My holiday hasn't been all that good. I know the season is for us to remember the birth of Jesus, but I can't help but look around and see a lot of people with their "significant other" and it only makes me want one. No I don't just want one for the sake of having one, but a particular one. Everyone always says the same to me...Put God first...he has a plan...maybe it wasn't meant to be..but the thing is...I do have God first in my life, I know he has a plan for me, and I think it is his plan, and maybe it wasn't meant to be? I'm not to sure about that one..lol, but anyways...thanks everyone for their advice, but if you have any other words that I haven't heard already, I'd like to hear them!Thanks a lot!

Caitlin (a.k.a. Hopeful)

Nothing

2004-12-09T02:20:29Z

WOW its definetly been a long time since I have updated this journal, and Im telling you now, it will be a short one because there is nothing new in my life! Well, church is awesome, God is awesome....yay for Grad photos this Friday! well, I must go now...I warned you it would be short...c ya

Caitlin

Retreat!

2004-11-09T21:09:13Z

Hey everyone! retreat was amazing! for all who didn't go, you missed out on alot...heres an outline:

Friday!
4 hours of riding on a bus! what fun!!! I sat with Bethany and we sang and talked and slept...lol
We got there while it was raining and cold..lol, so we unpacked and then had a late service....After returning to our rooms we were all sooo tired, that we turned off the lights by 2am! thats quite early compared to last year.lol

Saturday
breakfast was at 8:30 and the service was at 10am..the service was awesome....we then had lunch, and then free time until supper...so Jenny, Bethany, Kaylee, Angela, Steve, Leanne, Sabine, Gianna and I went on a long walk where we had many fun times...lol...after supper was yet another service, and it was soo hard for me to stay awake because of lack of sleep..lol..it was such an amazing service..so many people comitted themselves to christ and it was just great..At about 10pm we had our cabin commercials. The room next to ours won with their Kraft Dinner addict commercial! We got third place with our Toilet paper "What dreams are made of" commercial! it was awesome!And at about (again) 2am, we all went to sleep because of the tiredness, but we all still had fun!

Sunday
Breakfast again at 8:30, then our last service was also good... THe seniors all got a chance to say something to the rest of the youthers and it was great. After the service, we packed up, had lunch, then a picture at the flagpole. That took soo long because of the many cameras that were there! Again, I sat with Bethany and this time, we didn't get to sit with the others, but it was still fun..I visited the back of the bus often! lol..I was throwing skittles into Gianna's mouth and it was fun!
Thats the end of my summary of the weekend...Hope you enjoyed it (yes Greg, I finally finished so you could read it!)